I’m very good at extremes. Need to review a book for a friend? Fine, I’ll read it right this instant! Should I cut down on my sugar? Sure, I’ll just never consume any of it ever again. Do I need to get more sleep? No problem, I’ll just set a strict bedtime every single day for the rest of my life.
This is a handy ability to have when you need to get things done, like say, write a book – (though also wildly annoying if you ask a certain someone’s wife…) – but it doesn’t always work as intended when you put it into practice.
Because life, schedules, relationship, and randomly occurring and unpredictable events happen. And that annoys the hell out of me! I’ll get into strict habits for varying lengths of time, and I’ll feel really good about stuff. I’ll feel like I’m being efficient, like I’m getting stuff done and like I have purpose… And then it all falls apart when I can’t keep it up anymore.
But lately, I’ve realized that it’s quite useful that my habits break down on themselves. It forces me out of my shell, to do things differently, and to life a little. It makes me take chances, do things in moderation and to think outside the box.
I’ve been busy lately, with two different short story projects and two different novels, keeping up with my social media, working out, and the day job. In between all of that I’m also supposed to be a normally functioning person, living a life. And I’d love to day that I’ve been able to do it all, but I haven’t. I don’t have as much time for writing one day, or I don’t manage to finish the book I’m reading at the moment, and I wish I had more time to practice the guitar.
But that’s okay – because when I don’t lock myself away with a project or adhere to my very strict schedules and regiment, that’s when life happens. That’s when you suddenly bump into old friends, go for a bike ride adventure through a forest you’ve never been to before, or discover a new hobby. And sometimes that’s all you need to keep yourself motivated and inspired to keep going.
I’m not quite sure what the moral of this story is, but I guess what I’m saying is that if you’re like me, a person who’s usually very strict with yourself but finding it hard to stay on track sometimes – don’t worry.
Let life get in the way now and then – it’s good for you!